H scheduled Christmas Eve with boys so that they can't go to church with me. I have been examining why I get so sad during the holidays and realized that it is because my sons spend time with OW. She was supposed to be my friend and betrayed me in a way that can't be excused and then gets to spend the holidays with my family...especially my sons. She doesn't deserve to have a relationship with my sons...That is what bothers me the worst. Time for me to pray really hard to let go of these thoughts.
I am so tired. I have been at this waaaaaay too long.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
