Tonight the girls and I are going to get our tree and decorate it. I feel a little sadness over this being the way it is. Yesterday D13 told me she wished mom wasn't doing what she's doing. D13 is angry.
I realize I have been stuck in a minor depression the past month or so and I'm slowly getting out of it. A lot of it comes from the holidays, and from the difficulty of accepting that this is the way it is. I don't know Gods plan for me but I do know that I'm not helping it to progress.
So tonight we'll have some family time together and I'll start working my way back to upbeat and positive.
