You've got to get a grip of this and decide what you want. You start getting the sympathy and attention from you know who and things will get oh so much more complicated, and your S will get caught up in the middle. You need to tell your W how you are feeling - she is not a mind reader. How has your communication been with your W recently, ( and you know what I mean!!!)? Are you communicationg properly about things still....not just avoiding issues for a quiet life? I know you have a lot on your plate with your mum and all....but letting communications slide will make things ten times worse.
If you are looking elsewhere for affection you need to let your W know that things have reached that stage...that you don't want to look elsewhere, but that you are lonely. Warn her at least. Then if she isn't interested in a R/M with you at least you can walk off with a clear conscience. Don't be tempted into something you know will be wrong. If you are going to think about going from one person to another do it with a good clear head....show your son how a real man should act.
I know this is so very hard....I am not judging you. I just know that you have always been a fair and compassionate man, and I think if you did something and got tempted you would be so disgusted with yourself.
Hang in there.....and be careful at that party next week.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
