Maybe I should be in piecing part 5?

[Hope4us]

Thanks guys.

You're spot on Pup, and that's what my struggle is. Doesn't really change anything with my plan, but I did need to vent a little and have my feelings validated a little. I guess I accomplished both.

54, Yes, I felt quite invisible. I almost felt bad for the people W was talking to because you could tell they were uncomfortable with me sitting/standing there and W not introducing me. Kind of made me feel pretty darn insignificant.

And that's where I don't know if my patients can last. I've felt insignificant for going on two years now (when the "friend" first started showing up in conversations). I feel like I'm just an means to the ends she's got cooked up.

I remember one time a year ago when W was hot and heavy in the A and I said to her something about ending it and working on the marriage and she said to me "This isn't all about you"! I replied, "Oh, I know this has nothing to do with me, If I wasn't thinking about everyone else but me, I'd have been gone a long time ago" and she just looked at me. And when I think about it, (and maybe this is my own fog talking), but I have a hard time remembering in our marriage when it wasn't all about her.

So am I beating my head against a wall when EVEN if she defogged and returned to her normal self, she would have this personality that was ok with me in the past, but now that the game has changed won't be for me?