God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

H was feeling so lousy that he ended up having a repeat night from over a year ago. He went to BIL's got really drunk. His brother ended up going home and got into it with his wife and getting OWI. H's sister chewed them all out for screwing up their lives and choosing alcohol over their families. H took it personal and yelled back. End of the night he headed (very drunk) right to OW's house. I seen him go by on the highway and called him. He'll do what ever the F*#$ he wants to do. He doesn't care. Do I hear him? He doesn't care. Maybe he cares for her. Probabaly not, but maybe he does. I told him I am done. Get your damb divorce. Do not call me. Do not come here anymore. There is no more "friendship". It is over. Get it done.

So if this is the phase where he goes back and goes through all the stages again before he breaks into the clearing. I probably blew it all out of the water. But my heart cannot take being used any longer. I say this all today. Knowing that I am hurt and angry and it is easier to say. Knowing that there's a good chance that it will all smooth over in a day or a week. I pray that this time I can stick to it in order for SOMETHING to change. It has to.