I cannot shake this nasty cold, but I really can't miss a day of work given my performance over the past few months so I am praying that a day of rest today will be enough to get me back on track.
So, H and I hung out quite a bit last night looking at travel books and watching movies. I still get uncomfortable when we are watching movies and there are marital troubles/divorce, but I'll need to get over that as it seems most movies have an element of this! We sat pretty close on the couch, and H was playing with my nose a lot. He pulled my head down to rest on his shoulder once too.
When we went to bed, there was ML. I've decided to up my game a bit and have started going to bed naked. It's cold in the room, but that's the sacrifice I'm willing to make! Anyway it seems to be working :).
He has been a lot more appreciative of the things I do lately too. Little things like thanking me when I cook are becoming more and more frequent. I can see positive changes in him that aren't R related too. He used to have a really bad temper, and get aggravated easily. Now, sometimes something will irritate me, like the fact that we have this fuse in the house that keeps going out, and he is so Zen about it. One of his new sayings is "if it doesn't work, it doesn't work." I had been walking on eggshells in some cases because I expected a bad reaction, the bad reaction that old H would have given. Now, 9 times out of 10, if something breaks, doesn't work, doesn't go to plan, he is seemingly unfazed. I am not sure what is bringing on this new behavior. My guess is that it has to do with his IC, as well as his exercise, self-reflection, and my changed behavior around him.
OK I'm off to make some breakfast, and hopefully start feeling a little better.
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
