I'm feeling sick to my stomach... Somehow I've reduced our R to friends with benefits. Exactly what I didn't want to happen. I'm thinking I should have made him chase harder before sleeping with him????
I sent H a text this morning saying "Cirque was so cool. Wish you could have come!" but no reply.....
I definitely gave H the CD's of our trip - I wonder what he thinks, when he see us looking happy in the photos.
Lisa - I feel so good when I'm with him - it feels so natural. But when he's gone I think I'm creating such a mess by sleeping with him.
I'm going round and round in circles. I think I'm being too easy and I want to pull back again and make him chase me more... but then he doesn't so I initiate contact and we have a nice time but then I'm disappointed that he doesn't pursue me more - but he has no need because he's got a wife that he can see when he wants to and the rest of the time he can be single and do whatever he wants.
AAAAHHHHHH! I've got that knot in my stomach. We've made love 3 times - all of them great, but not one of them has made his step forward. I feel like I've screwed the 4 stages up. 1 Reduce tension (completed), 2 Friendship (semi), 3 Romance (zero), 4 Reconciliation - (he doesn't need to do this).
I don't think I'm enough of a challenge for him to keep him interested.
I think I'm creating enough openings for him to know that I want to see him more often. I promise. But we haven't had a conversation about it, because so far I've stuck to the 'no R talks' rule. I cant very well say I want to see you more often, and then turn him down to make him chase me!
