Another Wife Hit by the Bomb Thread #5

[Tawnya]

I guess I don't know if it is or not..a boundary Tom..I just don't know I feel like nothing is within a boundary anymore, if that makes sense..and this is such ridiculous and new territory I don't know what I would say or how I would back it up..except to say something like "you taking her on this trip and lying to me about it is disrespectful and unacceptable. If you go on this trip with her you will need to find somewhere to live pretty immediately after Christmas (I think I would get more specific than that..this is just my rambling right now totally off the cuff..)..because that is unacceptable to me to live with?!

I dunno..I know people have spouses that go off with their OTHERS and, is this trip really any different than them say spending every one of those days together at work..well yes I guess it is different because they will be together constantly..but is it any different than if he was HERE, off those days, and went to see her every day? Is it any different than when he took her and her 3 kids to the zoo all day? I dunno..

I just feel like, am I a doormat if I allow that to happen (when I say allow, I have no control over it, but you know what I mean)..and there be no consequences on my end..does my knowing when he didn't want me to be a consequence enough..does any of this matter LOL..

Anyway..I guess I'd still love some thoughts on the above post and my rambling in this one..off to pray and hopefully sleep soon

Hugs and thanks!

Tawnya