Standing on the Edge

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I don't know if it is the inevitable two steps forward, one step back, or that I am just fooling myself......

Last weekend I got all kinds of signs that she is warming up and I bit the bullet and asked her out........

There was an awkward silence and rather than let her turn me down I retract my offer. Instead she goes to a bar to hear a band with some 'friends'.

Tonight I was invited to go to her uncle's surprise b'day party, but declined. I then called her to let her know that her decision to not go out with me hurt and that I was angry.

I then told her that she had seemed to be giving a lot of positive signs lately.

She explained that she had been doing things 'together' (as a family) for our D's sake, to make her feel 'secure', and that she even had enjoyed them, but no....there was no interest in reconcilliation. (I am paraphrasing here).

So it was like tearing open an old wound. At first I was afraid she might be wanting to get back together, then I put myself out there to test the waters, then I get slapped back....

My divorced friend Tim says she is likely not sure herself, but when does no mean no ? When do you take the WAS's words at face value?

I believe in the adage ' Belive only 1/2 of what they say...' but this is getting old.......