Just stopping by to say hello and that I'm thinking of you. Have you tried thought stopping at all? I know it's really hard to keep from going over things in your mind, but I'm reading a book on Zen at the moment and one of the key teachings is to be still and do nothing (thought wise). i find it very calming and was just wondering if it might help you.
You're an amazing guy with lots of love to give, and you're going to be just fine!
