Hi GG, thanks for stopping in. Ugh...I know I need to focus on me. I read an article today that talked about dealing with huge changes in life and just focusing on the small next steps vs. trying to get through it all in one go and figure everything out. I've been really up and down since posting last night...felt better for a bit this morning, then kind of got into a bit of a crash thinking I wasn't this enough or that enough, now I'm pulling out of that, just trying to put the brakes on that kind of stuff.
Hi Grace--yeah, a long road indeed! You're right, I do tend to idealize w. a lot...and diminish myself too while I'm at it, it seems. I'm trying to focus more on some of the small accomplishments and choices I make for myself each day. It's helpful to do that. Sometimes it feels like drops in the ocean!
I was thinking earlier that maybe if I was just more "x" and less "y"...it would be different. But then I wonder if those things were true, she'd leave me because of "z"!! How many times have I been on that particular merry-go-round?!
Btw, no, we were just c/l, not married. So there is no divorce process to go through.
