Have not written in a while, things are good one week the next week all hell breaks loose. Last week before I went to work, I walked into her bedroom to find out how things went with her class reunion, next thing I know, Im laying in bed with her and shes all excited to give me all the details of how she was the star of the reunion, I complemented her and told her that of course she would be the star since she is so attractive and very smart, she proceeded to show me the people from her Yr book, and the next thing I know we spent two hours laying in bed hugging, and caressing each other in a non sexual way. She proceeded to ask me why all this attention, things are not going well with OW? I just told her I love you very much and wish we could make it work, I said you don’t have to give me an answer right now, but as we go through this divorce if you ever have a second thought let me know, I would love to have you back in my life, THE END. I get up, give a kiss on the cheeks, told her I love her and went on my way. Next few weeks all is ok, just doing the dailys, kids, work etc.
Forward this weekend, shes going away to her yearly girls weekend away to our summer home, its also the 12th of the month, the day she gets paid and is responsible for giving me half of the household expenses, I call in the morning, I get no response until the afternoon, I’ll leave you a check on the kitchen counter. Im also upset since its not my day to pick our daughter from school, but she lets me know that I must, she has to make it to the ferry. I arrive at home no check, remember this is the second month that we have had an argument about the household expenses, I decide to call her on her cell, I get giggles and laughfter and the phone hangs up, I call again, same response, five minutes later I call again five times no response, now I’m in a rage I cant control it, I go trough her new wardrobe, I throw at least a thousand dollars worth of her new clothing in a trash bag and place it in the garage, for the next two hours it’s a back and forth of text and NASTY, phone calls, names are called, demeaning words are said by both of us, a couple of the girl friends get involved they also get my wrath. This morning I go to the pharmacy to get my prescription, I cant get its been cancelled, I leave her a message to let her know what just happened, ten o’clock this morning I get a call from her apologizing about laughing when I first called last night, that she would make sure the funds would be in the account Monday morning.
WOW. What have I done, I feel that I have blown any chances, I feel she might try to get a restraining order this Monday or Tuesday, just a feeling, she also mentioned it during the argument.
