Its that time of year.....

[a new 2moro]

Im subject to depression this time of year...Ive upped one of my mood stabilizers......but i find my self depressed over the state of things. I m just hung up in the past about the affair and the cow. When I think of H being intimate with me all i can picture is him and her. I think I dont want that anymore....I dont know what i would do if he tried to be.