For the Guy with Kids and a WW Twenty One

[hopeful4her]

I'm determined this time, karen. I am determined to drop the rope with her. If that means that it leads me further along to D, then so be it.

I feel pretty confident that me dropping the rope or pulling myself away from her will have the desired effect that it should, but I am going to continue, until MAYBE I see another chance to 'attack'

She's not missing me and I don't think she will let herself miss me. And I truly believe that if she gets money from her father's estate, my goose is cooked for sure.

I need to contact her to discuss the kids presents. I don't even want to do that, but I need to. Probably today.

I put the lights on the trees outside today. Think I'm gonna skip the lights on the house, though. My bud lent his extension ladder to another guy, and I'm just not feeling it anyway. I'm just doing it for the kids. I got the Christmas decorations inside the house ready for the girls to decorate and we'll go get our tree on Sunday after we visit my parents.

BTW, had a lot of fun last night. After work, I was the first to get to Saltgrass. I called in a reservation, so it was only a 40 minute wait this time. Waiting outside, sitting on a bench and drinking a beer, a lady struck up a conversation with me. She asked me something about my boots, which led to us talking. Where we're from, if I was Italian(my ancestry is Canary Island, so I have Mediteranian features)and shopping for our kids. She was with her mother, who was on the phone the whole time. I told her I was waiting for others. The gorgeous P was the first to arrive and that stopped her conversation with me. We hugged each other and talked for a bit and then they called my name. The lady looked like "Wow, she is pretty". On the way inside, I told her it was good talking to her.

Inside, we sat next to each to each other and then B and K showed up. I like P alot. When we used to work with each other, years ago, she was single and I was married of course, but there was always a little 'something' there. Fellow co-workers at the time used to try to start rumors back then, but I was definately happily married, so didn't think much of it. I always made her laugh and she is the type that leans into me when she cracks up.

Even more so when we drink.

She is 8 years older now and seems pretty happily married. It was nice to see and talk to her again. She reminds me exactly of the wife. Same personality and very close to the same features physically that I like. Almost the same age as her, too. Two years younger and like I said before, we have the same birthday.

But....not looking. It was just nice, you know?

The conversation with the woman outside made me feel good, too. Made me think that it is actually pretty easy to just strike up a conversation with someone. She was not a beauty. She looked like a 'mom', for lack of a better description, but really, really nice and friendly.

And to me, nothing better than a Saltgrass ribeye and a beer. Only problem is, I forgot to get my damn cake.