I was unfaithful #4

[Sanderika]

Hi M,

I have actually been thinking lately that I will treat H with friendship and kindness and respect for a while longer. I do not imagine though that once we are D (if that's what eventually happens here) I will want to be his friend.

I completely understand your feelings of being let down by H. I too feel the same. I also feel what you feel about them being with someone else after so many years with us. You and I have been with the same H's for a very long time, it is not something we can let go of easily. We are not to be beat up about it either. For each of us it takes a different amount of time to move on and for some we never do. I fear I am one of the later. I am trying my best to be content in the world I now live in...it is a day to day, minute by minute process. All we can do is live a good day and hope for the same for tomorrow. We all backslide and that is OK.

I am glad you had a good time at your party. It is a good step.

Keep treating your H with enthusiasm and friendship and kindness, let's see where it takes the two of you...I feel he likes the new reaction/action from you.

Keep the faith...Something good will come from this all....

Sanderika