purr yes what you are feeling is normal.....this is not a road that you get over like the flu......its long...and you have to be so deliberate...its really weird how much this does affect us....just know in your mind you have probably made your w into way more that she is...like all the great fun she is having....alot of it is a cover up to the pain they are in thinking this is all there is too life...i know when i see my h who has ow....and these are all his choices he doenst look happy to me at all...in fact he looks different....
on the way u feel about ow...and still loving your wife...dont rush it...r u divorced