You guys beat me hands down, I have never confronted OW, since all of this started, I met her over a year ago, when she was with her BF at H's and her BF's work, and then was introduced to her when she first started working at the convienient store last year when her BF was put in the mental ward at the hospital.
WC, it was her house I drove by, where my H is living at the moment. My friend works at the school board office in OW's town, and that was my excuse for being there in that part of town, was that I took my friend back to her car after dinner, I didn't but that is what I told my H.
WC I love that you were sitting in between them, and didn't let him got on the horse emergency.
Tonight, I got something I haven't gotten for since all of this started and H told me to stop saying I love you, because he said it was forced. H told me, I do love you. I didn't get excited, well in my heart I did, but I made sure I didn't come unglued for H to see. We went about our normal Friday night, the bank and mexican. Were supposed to do some Christmas shopping, but went and saw Roy, our friend who had been in the hospital. It was a nice night. H came in and got some more clothes, and I gave him some shampoo and conditioner. He said he will be over tomorrow around 3:00 to go help my Mom and Dad after the craft show my mom is doing. So we will go do that tomorrow, and then Chiefs on Sunday.
I am not going to get excited, because he still isn't home, so I know he isn't to the right point yet. I hope it is a step in the right direction.
It did come up in conversation tonight that H saw me drive by, he said that he wondered what was up, was going to call me but when he saw me head North like I was going to Tiff's house, he figured I must have taken her to her work to get her car. I said yeah, I didn't even see you. I said you were behind me? H said yeah, I saw you drive by, there is a green mustang in town there, but no white stripes, so when I saw they went all the way down, I got in the jeep and spun it around and caught up with you. (I was thinking no [censored], you had drive pretty damn fast to catch me) But when I drive I don't look around much, so H doesn't know that I saw him. I hated to lie, but at this point, didn't want him to know I was driving by.
I still am not sure why I did, I guess just so I know where he is at. There were no outside Christmas lights or anything festive loking.
We talked when I got home on Thursday, about the way different people feel about Christmas, I said that Tiff had presents already under the tree for her D. None from Santa, but when I grew up nothing went under the tree, except on on Christmas eve (PJ's that I opened that night to wear the next day. So that way when I got up everything was a surprise, H and I kept doing that with SD, she got PJ's the on Christmas Eve and then everything else went out after she went to bed. I wonder if OW doesn't do that, because he was very attiment about some people not doing that, and not knowing the real reason for Christmas, and knowing the Christmas story. He even said he didn't figure SD knew the whole story, even though she went to Sunday school with H's mom a bunch. But just didn't like that people didn't know the real reason for Christmas and not giving presents early. Made me wonder OW's views on that. As upset as he seemed, made me think she didn't agree with him on that one. Not that another person's ideals aren't fine, but just that they don't jive with H's. Especially in an intimate sitatation like he is in, where they have already established their traditions.
Anyway just something I was thinking about after last night's conversations.
hey girl, yes its windy here. wcw you rock with the ow lol! mt, i hear you about the i love yous, its been like that here, he said it when he dropped the bomb now he is confused whatever.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
The I love you thing in the beginning was weird, H asked me to stop saying it before I ever read the DB book, where it said to stop. So I had stopped, H hadn't said it since the night before he told me everything. H had went to the cemetary where his brother and mom are, and I had called to check on him and I said I love you, and H was crying and said it too. That was the last time I heard it other than the ILYBNILY, until last night. So who knows what is going through his head right now.
do we really want to know whats going thru it? i dont think you do, i got some of it the other nite from H, its not worth it at all sweetie.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I agree. All that is between their ears is alien chaos.
How are you this morning MT and girls?
I watched part of your game yesterday MT. So much better than the Loser Lions. Except that I have rooted for the Colts since the Lions fired Steve Mariucchi. I really enjoyed seeing them beat the Lions yesterday.
How was your evening?
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
I am doing good, other than the game yesterday and the cold, we can lose a game, in last 4 min, because Herm kept calling timeouts when we wanted the clock to run. We can screw up an onside kick, and let them score two touchdowns. Then we have a chance to win it with time running out, the kicker had been making kicks from the 45 yard line, in pregame, but of course he missed two during the game. You know how can you lose so bad when you are leading by 21 -3 but hey we had a bigger lead over Tampa and lost too. When we got to the game at 11:00 it was 65 degrees, by the time we left it was 22 degrees, and the wind was so cold. This morning it is 6. I hate winter.
Well this morning, H called me at 5 he had to go in early. Told me the roads were nasty. So I said I would be there early hopefully around 6:15. When we were getting off the phone, I thought he said I love you again, but I wasn't sure. So I didn't say anything. I took him the football sheets and some peanut butter balls and peanut clusters. We talked a bit but was so cold, as I was leaving H said again, I love you, so I responded with I love you. H said be careful (it was pretty icy this morning, I took the truck), I said do you want me to call when I get there, H said yes. So I called him when I got to work.
I am hoping he is heading in a good direction. He hasn't said it for so long, it has been nice to hear, but not getting my hopes up too soon.
