God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

Thanks for posting Snodderly. Your such a wise woman.

I think your right, it is just that as a mother my first instict is to confront and defend.

I know your right about the alone time, just hard to do. But I am doing it.

As for OW...I don't want to have a thought about her anymore. I think I believe him that she is gone. But he has not done one thing to "prove" to me that this is true. It has just been words from him. Things have changed but he has lied to me sooooo many times before, I keep asking myself how do I really know this time? How do I know that he is telling the truth this time? How is it any different than before? Am I being a fool to believe him?

And IF she is still here, it makes it that much harder to leave him be. Does that make sense? If I KNOW that there is no one else it is easier to leave him alone. If there is OW it's not right.

Yes I am working everyday to make the best of things for me and the girls. Some it is forced but it has to be right now. All we really have is today and I don't want any regrets. N14 and I worked on putting up my villages the other night. It was fun. She told me that when she gets out on her own and goes broke because she bought all this village stuff too, she will call me. She's hooked. Hopefully the girls will be home long enough this weekend to get our tree up. The rest of the time I plan on doing some baking, maybe even crafting some gifts for the girls at work.

Thanks again, Snodderly please check back with me again, I can really use your expertice.
TOH