Should I be here on Sunday when he comes to get his things?
The little voice in my head tells me that I'm probably not emotionally ready to do that, and that I probably should not be here.
I can see myself breaking down or trying to reason with him or getting angry or getting hurt etc, etc.
I want to see him in a sick, twisted way, which probably means I should not see him. It's going to hurt even worse if I do see him and it's the alien that shows up instead.
I don't think he has the balls to be the alien to my face, but I could be wrong.
I don't think it would hurt him to see me, however. I don't like enabling his running.
