(((Samina)))) Missed your post in there. Thankyou for visiting! I think that if CEO keeps me on in a company of me and him it'd be a good enough thankyou for giving his talk. That or a Christmas drink or two- this week will be interesting.....

So, there was no contact from H yesterday- he had his Xmas party all day, so I didn't expect to hear from him in any case. I sent him an e-mail thanking him for his help on Thursday night and telling him a bit about my day/weekend plans. On Thursday I also said I'd text him to let him know what I thought of a program we both watch, so I'll do that tomorrow.

CEO and I went out for lunch yesterday (we were the only two in the office). He told me about everything that had led up to his having to give everyone notice of redundancy, and what was going on with the funding and so on. I was pretty shocked to hear it, and tried to validate him and make the right kinds of noises to approve of what he'd done. I do think he's actually done the only thing he could do.

He then asked who I was interviewing with and we talked about the lack of jobs suitable for me. He said he'd help me if he could, and said I shouldn't not apply to jobs out of a sense of loyalty. I said I wasn't. He also mentioned the possibility of spinning a small company out of the current one, but that it would just be me and him working for it. That'd keep me going financially for a bit longer, so we'll see.....We talked about his career and what he might do next. He said he likes being a CEO but has no idea if he's good at it, so I validated that.

After that we discussed the house a bit. I told him I'd felt like Lizzie in Darcy's house. He's a bookworm so if he thinks about it he'll realise it's an allusion to being attracted to someone and seeing them as if for the first time. He asked if I liked the bath, and I said I really did but that I'd be worried about sinking into it. He said you can get booster seats and that he'd thought of that before when he'd had a small girlfriend.

As we walked back to the office we had this conversation (this is quite long, but had a couple of interesting elements, more for my own journalling)....

CEO: I thought your H seemed like he wouldn;t be strong enough for you
ME: Oh, well, he used to do a good job of keeping me in check. I need someone who can control me and not let me always get my own way, or I can't respect them
CEO: Yes, exactly. I just thought he was a bit wimpy and not good enough for you.
ME: Oh, he wasn't before. he's having a hard time right now. He used to look like Matthew McConaughey before he lost so much weight.
CEO: (laughs) No way! He just seemed a bit wet. Not like the kind of person you should be with
ME: Well, you can be a bit intimidating.... (smiling)
CEO: not to everyone, like that other guy who thought we were stupid
ME: That's because we're too good-looking and people think gorgeous people are a bit dim (I was joking- I don't really think this, BTW!)
CEO: (laughs) The thing to do is never to smile. Then everyone respects you
ME: (laughing) Is that why you never smile then?
CEO: (laughs). What did your H want?
ME: well, we're friends. I think he senses that I'm moving on and it's making him reconsider his position
CEO: Are you moving on then? Are you going on a date?
ME: Yes, moving on. But no- I only date people who I feel a real spark with
CEO: OK, so if you could pick one famous or Hollywood person for a night of passion who would you pick?
ME: Ummmmm (struggling). Can they be dead? (CEO says yes). In that case, I'd pick Julius Caesar
CEO: But you don't know what he looked like and he's not from Hollywood
ME: But he was a genius- he was a seducer of women, a master of language, warfare and politics, and an athlete.
CEO: No, no, you're too hung up on personality. If it was just for one night of passion and purely based on their body who would you choose? Arnold Schwarzenegger? He's big.
ME: No! He's too old. Ummmm, (at this point CEO starts naming people I don't know)......Brad Pitt? Although he's a bit girly looking
CEO: My Mum thinks Brad Pitt looks like a girl
ME: Yeah.... I usually prefer a drk-haired man in any case. Oh, what about Mel Gibson?
CEO: He's too short. I've met him and he's only about 5ft 10.
ME: Oh, that is too short. I like a dark-haired man over 6ft tall. I've never been out with anyone shorter than that. (CEO starts searching the internet for Hollywood stars over 6 ft tall)
CEO: How about Matthew McConaughey?
ME: Clever- very good! No- probably not. Daniel Craig maybe
CEO: He's too short aswell though- even shorter than Mel Gibson
ME: Gosh, well, I guess if he happens to walk into the office I'll just have to tell him that he can't have me because he's not tall enough and pass him on to (rich girl).

Then I walked away. CEO laughed and seemed pleased by the answer, and then we got on with our work.

Later in the day I told him he should take me out for a Christmas drink as we both missed the party. He didn't commit to a day/time so we'll see what happens. He also told me it was his nephews' birthday this weekend, so I bought a card for him to pass on (that's not as wierd as it sounds- I've met his nephew a couple of times and we have a good time when we have. He's 10).

So, CEO will think of me on Sunday, and I'll text H to remind him of me too (I said I would on Thursday). It's like a wierd merry-go-round of people thinking about each other and not doing anything about it.

*sigh* Anyway, I thought CEO's opinion of H was interesting. H thinks CEO looks old and is like a caricature of a man, so I guess they're even. The conversation they had must have been a mixture of sizing each other up and discussing me in a roundabout way by talking about the conference/my talk. Men are so complicated!! ;\)

L. xx