Sorry I wasn't been able to connect yesterday. I'm with you on feeling blue. We're all in it, my man...especially now w/the holidays.
Time is your friend. Don't lose sight of that.
As for your "down" day, that is fine. Take them and relax. It is ok to "nest" from time to time. Just don't make it a habit or a ritual and you'll be fine.
You were very insightful on your thoughts about "control" and your W. You can only control you, so it is good to get this into your thought pattern. Now the trick is to not only say it, but to own it completely. Once you can own it, you'll be free. It takes time and work. Give time and do work.
Life will sort itself out, so you just keep living for Carlos. There are many things we'll never understand, but we can control how we choose to feel every day.
If you are down, challenge yourself to rise up. Embrace the challenge and win this fight for you.
A better you is the key to future happiness...w/or w/out W in the picture.
In the end, there is only one guaranteed to be there...and that one is Carlos.
Rest tonight and attack life tomorrow, my brother. RTL
