While I appreciate the sentiment, I do not want to feel better just because you feel like you do not have it all together. I am sorry you are struggling tonight.
This thing really is up and down and up and down. There is nothing wrong with wanting attention from someone. Only you can decide how long to keep working towards reconciliation. I do not think there is anyone here who would fault someone for deciding it is time to let go.
I will say this, however, that decision should not be made while one is describing oneself as a mess. Not that I think you are about to make that decision tonight.
I really appreciate your commeraderie. I know tonight is a tricky one for you. I hope you are baking with your friend.
