Only sharing this with you Beth because it sometimes doesn't feel good to think that everyone else is handling their sitch more comfortably... today I am a mess again! When will this end? Is it easier to just stop dbing and move on... what's so wrong with dating... getting some positive attention elsewhere?

O.K., that's probably heretical, I know. But dang, the not knowing, the wondering, is he with someone, etc., yikes! I could go crazy with this some days.