Okay. Sun's shining. That helps. H sent me an email saying he's leaving work early to come get the boys and get out of here for the weekend. Says he hopes I'm feeling better since the sun is shining. (So he does know a few things about me) I am really dying for them all to get out of here and let me just do whatever for a few days. Don't have to hear the dreaded "I'm hungry."
I read this in my Al Anon book:
My life is a series of unfoldings -- incidents and occasions, agreeable or distressing. Each day is full of them, hour by hour, and this makes it difficult for me to take a detached view of all that is happening. I'm too close.
If these occurrences were like so many pieces of merchandise -- groceries or dry goods -- I would see them clearly, good and bad. Looking at the incidents of my life this way, I might be astonished to discover that the good far outweigh the bad. And yet, I concentrate so heavily on my trials and burdens that I hardly give a thought to relishing the pleasant and satisfying things that happen each day.
This noticing is an acute awareness of our surroundings and what takes place in them. It can be cultivated, like watching a play or a film. Today's Reminder: If I learn to see everything with a fresh eye, I will find I have many reasons for contentment and gratitude. When I find myself bogged down with negative thoughts, I will deliberately turn away from them. Let me observe with new interest even the commonplace things that happen in each new day.
So. That's something to think about. I have on my favorite old blue jeans. Revel in small pleasures.
