Recipe for a Military Wife

[S.T. _I Made It!]

actually T, you made a lot of sense, and you beat me to the punch.

What the heck???? This is the same man that has not gone out of his way to send them much of anything up to this point. The kids did not want to answer them Wednesday, so I saved them and will ask them again tomorrow. Is he now going to manipulate the kids?? Who knows.

this is what I'm talking about. I know your confused, and this probably even angers your some because he has waited until now to do it. Your thinking, all this time he's been avoiding them, why now. Well, you've got to stop this type of thinking because you know it's not from God. You need to look at this for what it is. A POSITIVE. The only thing that I was thinking when I read each email, was that his R with d5 (just from these emails only as I have nothing else to base this on) seems much more distant then the others. I can obviously see that he feels much more connected with d9 as you've stated before. But his email to d5 was not very personable, but it might be because s3 said she was being mean.

But anyways, that wasn't my point. I want you to start seeing these positives as positives. If you start questioning why, your going to find yourself getting more angry, and that's not what you want. You will start leading yourself down that path that may not want him to come back.

I understand your tired. Who wouldn't be tired being in your shoes. You are carrying so much. You've got to continue letting go. And on your letter, why does it need to be now? He is gone anyways, and won't be back until spring, so IMHO if you feel inclined to write the letter to let him know your not just going to pretend anymore, then i would do that closer to his arrival.. like a month or two. But that's just me.

What are you looking for him to do in response to the letter? Are you just needing to let these feelings out and let him know for your own sanity? I can understand that.

I'm truly sorry that you are going thru this limbo. I sometimes, not often mind you, have wished that my sitch could have lasted longer so that I could have experienced the worst of it and yet still stand up successfully, and really have a great understanding of what many on here have/are going thru. I can't say that I understand your pain, as I'm not in your shoes, but I know it's hard, and I also know that God will get you thru it if you let him. Try not to take the lead, and I know that is the hardest thing to do.

love ya. make this a good weekend.