Just Journaling:

All's strange still on the H front. Not much contact and when I do see him he is very very quiet.

Was at d13's swim meet Sunday and he kept staring at me from his seat. My dad was sitting with me in the beginning so H stayed away. Too afraid to see the man who did so much for him....only for him to walk out on his daughter.

H did call me regarding Christmas. He was out shopping for d13 and was having a hard time. Told me it was up to me as to whether we were giving gifts from both of us or doing our seperate thing. I didn't answer. Not sure what to do.

His sister invited me for Christmas eve...and he won't be there so I think I will go. His other sister invited me for christmas day...not sure what I will do. H and this sister do not get along. She sees right through everything. Last year he bailed on christmas. Didn't come out of his cave (or that's what he said). We'll see what happens this year.

I did hear from my L. H lawyer is being a pain about the listing agreement. I made some concessions but not all. One of which is I stll don't want any showings after school when d13 is home alone. If H wants to go to court over them...then he is an idiot.

I feel that H goes runnig to his lawyer so that he doesn't look like the bad guy forcing me to sell our home or discussing it. It is so obvious.

It is funny. There are times during the last year I thought H would be back at some point. Now I am not so sure. Too much damage has been done. I don't see him ever coming home. It is so sad.

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