I am currently reading DR, but I think I need to skip straight to DB. I have stopped asking about the EA/PA/OM. It really doesn't change matters, and as you point out, it only pushes her away more. I am letting go of it (at least in front of her) and praying that God will reveal the truth. I really need to let go of it in my own mind to really allow God to work. I am hoping for the best and preparing for the worst....