God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

Okay,
Have you all throw up your hands and left me? I guess I understand if you have. But I wish there was someone out there that could see H and I are really in a new phase and could help me get through this...could really use some encouragement and input.

I am pushing to get into the Christmas spirit. Got my villages up last night. N14 helped me. It was a necessity to keep busy as H left for his place again last night. I didn't say much this time. He didn't take anything with him. Just said he needed to get his mail and would stay there tonight.

Although I think I believe him that OW is gone from his life...BUT I cannot deny that there's a thought in my head as to is it just a coincidence that he goes home on the nights that she is off work. Is he spending them nights alone or is she there...trying to trust him, and damb hard...

We had a good 1/2 week together. H seems more in tune to me and the girls. Doesn't seem like he has to "try" to be here. But he's still not talking, bad problem. But I am letting him alone and doing my own thing. Being me now, I have to be.

Have a good Friday friends, and a better weekend.
TOH