OK this will probably be the last post on this particular thread. I think it's about time to move on to a new title and a new focus. For the moment though, just journaling...
H came home very late last night, as anticipated. I did my 180 and did not call or text to check on him at all. Interestingly though he texted me twice while out, just to say he was still out. I replied with a brief but nice response, because I really like this behavior, and I want it to continue. As anticipated also, he came in very drunk. This didn't lead to R talks, but there was some ML and more affection than there had been in awhile. He made some reference to marriage too, a good reference, about sex and that it was part of marriage. I can't really explain it, but it was the first time in awhile that he had just referred to our marriage in a casual way, as though it's just a given and not some scary institution that he needs to question. Of course he was drunk, but he still seemed himself and was still coherent so I think his tongue was just loosened a bit.
Today I am still really sick, but I cannot miss another day of work. We also have the company's Xmas party tonight, and I was looking forward to wearing a cocktail dress and getting all dressed up even if it isn't with H. I may have to bail on this though, as I'm in pretty bad form.
Anyway I am feeling good (emotionally not physically:)) today, and fairly calm. Last night was a big test for me, and I think H was probably concerned about it too. Now I know I can "let" H go out without nagging and that he will actually keep me informed of his own accord.
Alright dragging myself off the couch to get ready for work!
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
