Today was Thursday date night. X seemed excited to talk to me today on the phone to set up the date. We went for a very long walk, these have been the thing tha has worked the most for us in th past few months. It was good to get out and wander around the city. After we watched our fav tv show CSI. She seemed a bit physically distant, usually she will have me hold her in my arms. However she was making more eye contact and holding it than I have seen in a while. I went to leave and she came out to the truck to hug me. Said thanks for tonight and tha she has enjoyed being with me the past few times. (the past three have been when I have pretty much acted as if I didn't care if we were together). This was great to hear from her. I feel that it lets me know that I am on the right path. Not contacting her first, slow to txt back if she txt if I even do at all, act very confident in her presence, dress nice(she has mentioned this last few times), and more or less act as if my life is going on with or with out her. It has been easier, with prayer to leave the thoughts of her and OM out of my head and if they do enter its getting easier to shut them off. Still not 100%. But all in all its baby steps both for me GAL and us being more comfortable around each other. When days like this happen it makes it easier to trust these methods and be more comfortable with myself. Long way to go but headed in the right direction finally.
