{{Carp}} Amazing looking back on it..but I do have to ask you this: WHAT have you learned about YOU during these 6 months?? I bet you would say a lot
Tawnya
Lil ole me you ask??
I have learned...... Listening...I spent some time in Phoenix this summer with my family. My mom, sister, BIL and niece and nephew live there. After a couple days home my sister called to tell me she missed talking to me!! She admitted that I was a damn good listener...my sister has a degree in psych....she ain't no dummy!
I have a female friend who I go WAY back with....farther then my marriage...I actually considered her more "sister" then anything. We lost touch over the years and as part of my GAL I started reconnecting with old friends. So....1 nite she is telling me her man problems...while the TV is on....I ask her to turn it off so I can listen. So I do my best job "listening"...next day I text her to check up on her...she says it was good to talk about....I didn't say but 10 words.
Taking charge at home... I have actually been accused of being...controlling....a dictator...you name it. There is far more peace in my house since I "manned up". My W has actually started to tell D12 to not act "disrespectful" towards her father!! I made a chore list and enforce it...as well as pay out the allowance. Since I live in a house full of "chicks" ..I get a lot of listening practice here as well.
My return to God... I was active in my youth group as a teen.....slipped away for years..have found my way back....HE was the missing piece in my life.
Patience..... I can weather any storm thrown at me!!! Spew from my W....lip from my kids...it takes alot to sway me to anger. I am not saying I don't get angry....but I do the rite thing with it. I have walked about 5000 miles since June!!!
I wanted to send an email to my W today to "celebrate" our anniversary...but I did not. Here it is
Thx for giving me 6 months to find myself. I wouldn't change a thing....every trial has made me that much stronger. I am a better dad...better person....hell evens better husband!! Adam
I took the family out for dinner. We laughed ...we talked....if you sat next to us you would NEVER guess anything was wrong!!
This afternoon I met with my A to put our final touches on our plan to go to court...I never spoke 1 word about it.
Painful stories in the morning.....L on the afternoon..dinner...2 hrs of House with W in the evening....how's that for detachment??
Do I have any love left for my W.......I really don't know anymore..
H 34 W 31 M 11yrs D 11 D 9
6-1-08 I wanted to fix marriage 6-11-08 I found out about OM
