Exactly. Then i am with you, I am a BELIEVER. I have seen so many things evolve before me inthe past couple of weeks, good and bad. There is no doubt in my mind that my Mom was right. the reason I break down when leaving church is I find a snctity there. When I leave I feel alone, and He is got hHis arms around me, letting me know I am not alone and its altright to breakdown, because I should get it out of me. I think while I am driving home and my mind is fresh and full of him, the toher one is ramming thoughts in my head of betrayal, unforgiveness and the lot. I do bind these thngs well, and I think it is His shulder I cry on. I didn't understadn why at first, but this week, my eyes and ears have been opened, Lead us not into temptation. Talk about revelations...
No I won't run, I believe running begets more issues down the road. I will not run from this fight, nor will I hide. I am doing good and I am doing well and I have Him by my side. As I said earlier, I know now the lesson I hav to learn. I believe I need to learn and practice and understand forgiveness before it is actually asked of me. I cannot give what I do not know. I have forgiven plenty in my life, but this will be a hrad lesson to focus on. And forgive us our trespassers as we forgive those who trespass against us. No longer are these words of a prayer, they have a significant meaning to my path now. You are awesome. I am going to a dance tomrrow night, some call it a date. She is a very nice woman i met at the last dance and we danced together quite a bit. she is older than me, very attractive and likeable. She lives far from me. All this temptation is all best kept at rms length. the one from line dancing is happily married, she is a friend, and who couldn't use more friends. this one lives down near my buddy adn goes to most of his gigs. Another friend to dance with. But both of these women, attractive , nice and likeable are at arms length for one reason or another, do you think that is a coincidence, No, not me. I think He has put things before me to gauge how I respond. He is glad that I know where my heart is. I am scared that I cannot love as deeply as befotre because I just don't want the urt again. bvut as I read and heard somewhre, don't know where but recently, Unless you open your heart, you will not ever know love. My heart is open to a lot of things, Forgiveness will open it back up to her. That is the lesson for today. I'll get there, as your husband did. It will be slow. I have time...I have found patience (somewhat lol) and I have this awesome realtionship with family and frineds. Her mother has been ot of the picture for a while. My older D tells me she hardly speaks to my W. Maybe once or twice a week, maybe. I am excited about Xmas now. Everthing is planned, I'm geared for shopping and the whole deal....New Years is all set, Super bowl sunday is all set, heavy line dancing the saturday berfore, 2 weddings in may, one is my son's. I'm a pretty busy guy, socially. And soon I won't be attending these things solo, that's the plan....
