I need to just get this out somewhere and this is the only place I have that no one knows me, the real me, the face to face me. I don't want to hear anyone's thoughts, opinions or whatever else.
BF and I have a mutual friend. He was BF's friend and became one of my best friends. This is the same person that was our roommate for anyone following the story. Well, they went Xmas shopping a couple weeks ago. best friend made 1 comment about BF that seemed off. Well, today i found out why. best friend asked bf about getting me a ring for christmas. especially since bf has my engagement ring to use for $600 credit at sears. BF told best friend I don't deserve it. he immediately asked best friend not to say anything. he wasn't going to, then it started eating at him. he almost told me several times, but hesitated and today just let loose. i have no words. i can't even look at bf.
my heart hurts. everyone was right. i've been so stupid.
again - i really don't want to hear anything. no feedback, encouragement, i told you so's or otherwise. i just needed to get this out
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
