Jayce - That's pretty close, we have a great brotherly/sisterly love and that's about it. Also I think she just has no interest in sex. I already know it is not me or my performance either because I had pleased those OW's and very much so. I am finally coming to the sad realization that I either have to live like this and give up sex basically or move on and live honestly again, not having to squelch my quite healthy libido.
Talking to her OB/Gyn is out of the question and even if I could there is no desire on her part to really meet my needs. We really are that far apart, I am at the high end of HD and she is at the low end of LD. Even meeting me halfway would be a stretch for me. Most of our marriage has been at something like her rising 5% and me lowering 95%. No wonder I needed so much "supplemental" activity (porn etc.). My journey has been to "clean up" and have a healthy relationship again. Sadly she is just not up to what would be healthy for me with no desire to change.
CB - The unemployment sitch isn't helping my mood, but it is really separate from the R. Like I said above if her trying really hard is only resulting in 5% of what would really keep me happy, it just will never work. There's no fight left in me for her.
