Thanks so much, Tom! It does feel good to "get back on the horse". I can't say I'm totally in the saddle yet, but my feet are in the stirrups.
The convo really wasn't all that bad. I think I need to focus on "loving detachment" more than going dark. Like you said, I don't want to be too intimidating to contact once he comes around, and I don't want him to think that I'm angry and don't care.
Day three of my fast is actually going quite well. I've felt very peaceful all day, and there has been much beauty to appreciate - the sunlight piercing the clouds, the soothing rain, birds dancing in the sky. I can't complain. I feel that God is with me, and I feel great hope for the future.
I will stay strong. I will not give up. I will trust in God.
I'm trying to emotionally prepare for when he comes this weekend to pack his things. If I feel defeated, I will be allowing defeat, and so I cannot do that.
Anyways, rambling. I hope you're well, and God bless.
