It's Complicated!

[glamgirl]

Well not so good yesterday.

H came over around 1pm to be there after school to help with s7 and then picked up d4 afterschool.

When I got home from work h said that he was out of sorts. Meaning not on an even kilter. He suggested that maybe he wanted to get off the AD's. I said h we should go to another Dr at the first of the year and see what should happen.

Then he went on to say how he was really taking this bad about his coworker getting an action plan. Now this really didn't sit well for me, since he talked recently about only working within his inner circle.

The reason it bothered me was I lost 2 jobs in the past year and h had NO compassion for me. The last one I lost on a Thur and I immediately called h and he didn't return my call until Sun evening.

His words were get over it, find another job, don't dwell on it, you are spending too much time on it. There was NO compassion.

Then soon after that I lost our dog. Had to put him to sleep. I called h, he never called me and then when I finally see him he says Glam it's only a dog. Only a dog. My dog was my beloved friend for 13 years.

Now he is showing such great compassion for a man he hardly knows. I don't get it. It's as if he can have NO compassion for me. It's like he is so cold and hard towards me.

Then h is helping with the kids laundry, but his help is put them in the washer and then the dryer and pile them in our room and yes then I need to fold and put away after a long day at work.

Well then h opened up a can of worms. He says Glam how many h's do you know that clean and do laundry. I was honest and said h but my friends have h's that live in the home and sleep with their w's. I know probably not good of me, but it't the truth.

I then said h I would rather have an h that was sleeping in my bed and committed to the m by living in the home than one that can push a broom or do some laundry.

Well h got all huffy and left soon after without a hug or a kiss goodbye. He just said I am leaving. By the time I started down the stairs, he was already out the door.

H never bothered asking me what I would like in a h. Seriously does he really think I would care about laundry and cleaning rather than dedication, committment, honesty, and integrity. Who is he trying to fool.

He walks around like he is so much better than all my friends h's. Does he really believe that?

He is suppose to be here today around 2pm to help with the kids. I hope all goes well.

I am just feeling a bit confused and sad. I don't see my h having any compassion for me, but shows so much more for others he hardly knows.

Thoughts?