W and I were "working" on things. She was staying with family and off and on and at home. I was asking alot of questions....and she was giving up the answers. She was recounting some "hook ups" she had with OM....and how she felt about them. The 2 stories she told me made my heart die a little....but she was my wife...and being honest....so I sat and listened. I had never felt so "connected" to my wife....maybe not in our whole marriage. She was deeply ashamed...for my pain..for what she had done to our family. The 2 times she told me about I was home with the girls....something that today I still think about....how a person you love...and trust...could say goodbye to you...while your children slept in their rooms...1 time I think D9 was in our bed...and go "be" with someone else!!
She wrote me a 6 page letter during these weeks of "working on us"...I might copy verbatim here....it talked about trust...love...forgiveness...even mentioned some stuff about OM. It used to hurt when I would read it....now I really feel nothing.
More later...
H 34 W 31 M 11yrs D 11 D 9
6-1-08 I wanted to fix marriage 6-11-08 I found out about OM
