Absolutely. Of course I couldn't see it at the time. But my husband's heart was softening. He was forgiving me and he was also dealing with some issues that were his alone to deal with. Everything is not visible to your eyes. That is where trust comes in. You will see the results of having had the kind of trust when YOU are prepared to do so.
I've been through many things on my journey since MLC. A lot of times I wanted to quit. I mean, after all I had done why the heck should I believe God would restore anything since I'd had the biggest hand in wrecking it? But with each personal challenge that I didn't back down from, I saw evidence of His hand in my life. Of His grace and mercy. Eventually I got the a place where when the next challenge came, I KNEW there would be some kind of breakthrough on the other side - so I wouldn't give up. And for a very long time all I had was little evidences - and it took THEM a long time to begin to be revealed - because I was not ready...and simultaneously - the whole time - it turned out that He was working on my husband as well.
If you expect a big, earth-shattering miracle you will probably be disappointed.
In my experience, miracles are subtle yet magnificently profound when fully realized.
The key to it all is to die to self.
Put down every foolish thing that binds you - and you WILL need help with that - REPEATEDLY.
But you never, never, ever give up.
Not if you believe in Him.
And not if you believe in what you once shared with her.
If/when the time comes when you sincerely begin to pray "Lord, change ME" instead of constantly praying she will be changed, the mountain will begin to move.
