STEPPING out...

[cagzmom]

TW my x for quite some time at d12 band concert on Tuesday night. Took a couple days for it to "get to me." He treated me like a really great friend...someone you can tell anything too.. AND HE TOLD ME ANYTHIGN... I did probe and ask - and I ALLOWED it..but the fact that he so willingly shared - yeah it messes with the mind a bit.

So sad really. I look at his running - his stages -- i think they call this one replay...he left to run and be FREE - within 2 weeks met someone and started a relationship -something he wanted..something "real" he was "IN LOVE WITH HER."

That is over now - and he is on to the next chase... that would be SEX. NO committment or at least nothing real. This chase is the saddest of all.....and watching/seeing/hearing it...makes my heart very heavy.

Also - seeing this wonderful friend whom i used to adore..knowing he has not changed, he is still caught in his own lies and runnign...

I could ask him - shoot anyone could and he would admit it.. He is running. Even says he wishes he would have never said anything that horrific day almost 2 years ago.

Me? I wish he would have said something and that we would have worked through this crisis together......