{{{Sandi}}} First of all..yeah..you can't say you are sorry..LOL Second of all, I appreciate you saying these things and taking the time to post them to me..it means a lot to me that you care so much
I am horrible with the quote boxes..so I will try to answer you without em
When you said that about asking my hub not to yell or be mad, I felt like I really DID this (maybe for the first time) when I was talking to him the other night, when I said "are you done because I want you to get it all out now cause I don't want to be yelled at home"..now..granted..the BEST case scenario that I will get to will be to stop the yelling/freaking out right off and/or hang up..but..you are right and it did feel GOOD to kind of empower myself (afterwards I was like, "who said that?" LOL)
I've always felt "badly" for hub because he does come across overbearing, some of it is "confidence" and some of it is an "I don't care what people think about me" attitude..tho, in all honesty, I know it's a wall he's put up to attempt from keep getting hurt, tho, we all know, that if you put up a wall, you are the one stuck inside alone..because, at the times the wall was down, he DOES care and he DOES get hurt..which of course makes the wall go up even further..
He had some close friends, less now that this OW sitch is going on (you know the secretiveness of it all), he does get mad about work a lot and does seem to have bad things happen to him (which I hate for him because he is INSIDE so good and kind (really I promise LOL) and would honestly give you the shirt off his back), he can be a sore loser YES, and he treated me well in front of people, in all honesty that's why my friends can't believe this is happening, because he would talk so sweetly about me and we would be good together, even over the summer..but I know that's not what you asked Umm..he CAN be a jerk to someone if they have mistreated him, men included, but not normally..I am sure that I am the one that is the "closest" that gets the brunt of his stuff..
Thank you for being open enough to share about how you treated someone..the GREAT thing is that you learned from it and probably wouldn't ever do it again..and look at all of the people you have helped and taken under your wing..so look at the good that has come from that after all You know, in a class at church once I learned something similar to what you are saying: I had/still do to a lesser point a problem feeling rejected/low self worth and I actually learned that we EXUDE a "reject me vibe" so to speak or a "hey, I am confident vibe" and so I was actually pushing people away, not even knowing it..isn't that something?
Yes..I so often say that the guys on here are AMAZING beyond belief and they rock!! The way they stand for their marriage, come on here looking for advice, admitting they were WRONG (WOW j/k), and loving and looking after their children so much just blows me away!
THANK you Sandi
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Tawnya!!! Hugs to you this morning. I'm proud of you for the class and for trhing something new. You'll catch on...unless you are like me and completely uncoordinated! If that's the case, you can still have fun...just stand in the back!
Love you!!!
Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
Mid 30s....good job....family man......dyes his hair......super good looking (cuz you would accept nothing less).....sensitive....I will keep an eye out for ya!!
H 34 W 31 M 11yrs D 11 D 9
6-1-08 I wanted to fix marriage 6-11-08 I found out about OM
OK..so Tom was posting some lyrics on his thread and made me want to post a song that I have been hearing lately that seems fitting: Lifehouse: Broken
The Broken clock is a comfort It helps me sleep tonight Maybe it can stop tomorrow From stealing all my time And I am here still waiting Though I still have my doubts I am damaged at best Like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing With a broken heart That's still beating In the pain There is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holding on (I'm holdin on)(I'm holdin on) I'm barely holding on to you
The broken locks were a warning You got inside my head I tried my best to be guarded I'm an open book instead And I still see your reflection Inside of my eyes That are looking for purpose They're still looking for life
I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing With a broken heart That's still beating In the pain (In the pain) Is there healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin on)(I'm holdin on) (I'm still holdin on) (I'm holdin on) I'm barely holding on to you
I'm hanging on another day Just to see what, you will throw my way And I'm hanging on, to the words you say You said that I will, will be okay The broken light on the freeway Left me here alone I may have lost my way now But I haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing With a broken heart That's still beating In the pain (In the pain) There is healing In your name (In your name) I find meaning So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin')(I'm holdin' on)(I'm still holdin') (I'm holdin' on) (I'm still holdin') Barely holding on to you (I'm still holdin on) Barely holdin on to you
Second of all, I appreciate you saying these things and taking the time to post them to me..it means a lot to me that you care so much 
