I screwed up again

[AnotherNightmare]

I had another good night of sleep and I have not had any mood swings since the weekend. Except I am little angry at myself because I forgot to set my alarm clock, so I had to skip going for a run this morning.

Since I am traveling home today, I am thinking about some plans for the weekend. Need to figure out what I can do with the kids. They and I have a day off tomorrow as well. I also expect her to approach me this weekend, because I am sure the whole custody issue is working in her mind (and OM probably told her how to handle it).
If it was not so sad, I would say I enjoy playing these mind games. The one thing I keep telling myself is that I am in control of the custody issue, while the D issue is out of my control. So my message (to myself and to her) will be, you are divorcing me, so I am preparing for a life without you, but with the kids. I do not care where you go, but I want the kids close to me. More importantly, I need to transmit this message to her through actions rather than words.

We will see how it goes...

AN