I've been extending myself thin this week. I've been working my 12 hour days, and then after getting home have gone over to spend the night with H. Then back home and to work, then back to visit H. Last night for a change he came here.
Things are good and yes it makes me uncomfortable! H is now saying ILY all the time and is very affectionate. This has allowed me to return this to him, which is new because I've been holding back for so long. There are times where I just look at him and wonder what happened inside of his brain in the past week or so.
H is looking forward to us having a few days off over x-mas, and also to our 2 week vacation/interview trip in Jan. It seems like right now we are in the new dating stage where we are together all the time.
But I still have these hurt feelings inside and worry about it all changing again (or course!). He did say in bed the other night "things aren't perfect, but they are tons better". That is as close as we've come to any discussions of what happened. At this point I don't want to push anything, and I feel that over time more will come out. Maybe there are things I never need to know?
I don't know- I am so happy and really think that we will make it through this! I am scared that there will be a next time... and realize that for all the prep work I've done to get here that the changes have to stay and we need to communicate better.
But, for now I am happy in my heart, knowing that I have a H who loves me...again!
Me-36 H-30 T-7yr, M-3yr DivorceBusting Saved my marriage! sep 6-08 to 12-08. Together again, things are good!
