It was only last night that I couldnt sleep again. Had a terrile dream. Was doing alo better with sleep on and off but was getting enough to function right. I just want to get trough this and be happy again with or wothout here. Dont want it to consume my whole day and make my life missrable,this can not b love? I am staying strong though and not calling to my surprise,must mean I am getting stronger. Even though MIL told me this I just analyze too much and look in the past and say this is not the woman I married or fell in love with. What has happened can someone do this to another even though they used to be so much in love. Sometimes i think she is not sorry for what she did but just sorry she got caught. Maybe thats why she is that way. Did find out through a friend that she went to our church last Sunday sat in the back and wrote a 130 dollar check for offering,but jetted out to make sure I dont see her. I know what she is doing. she letting the other woman off slowly which I think is wrong because she will always be there waiting on her.My wife should of done this cold turkey,i do understand feelings are involved but I dont think its right
