"The things WE have the power to bind are spirits of selfishness, pride, unforgiveness, unwillingness to learn and grow (because it hurts) and giving our personal issues up to God [trusting Him], etc..."
These are the thoughts I have been having. It is scary to me that you would have posted this after two nights and days of this anguish. I do trust God and speak to Him more and more lately. But these feelings, as you have posted, are very overwhelming to me. Why are these thoughts all of a sudden returning to me, but with stronger emotion than before? My words do make me feel better and help me sleep. "God will bring me something, someone to make this better. God will bring me something to make me happy." I believe it with all my Heart and Soul.