So are you telling me that now, the raw feelings of emotions, the getting harder for me, is because my Faith in what He is telling me is causing something to go my way? It is strange that you would tell me this, just because of the feelings I have. Thank you for the scriptures. I am binding the things I can, as I have posted previously and I am giving all my Faith into Him to bind the rest. I don't want to metnion this, but I need to , at least to you. the negative feelings are telling me to kick her to the curb, find someone else and move on, completely without her, that what she has done, cannot be forgiven or forgotten. Yet, I lay in bed at night and say this to myself as these thoughts bombard my mind, "God will bring something, someone to me and make this go away. He will bring to me an end to my lonliness". It does help me sleep. I do believe He is speaking to me as I sleep. Been very restful each morning, but the thoughts remain. Yes, it is harder to endure now, like I am being tested even more than before. But as you said, as I ask Him for guidance and revelation, the other will try to drive me to despair.
I want to thank you for understanding. I see signs of things, but I cannot let myself go to those and gain more false hope, so I retract from them. The pain in my mind and heart are strong, like it is happening all over again. When things got harder for you, moving in the way you believed God was moving you, were things going in your favor? I do believe in the phrase "darkest before the dawn". Your post has helped me feel better knowing that maybe, somewhere, somehow, things could be going my way...
