HI LISA!

I've been extra busy. I put my house up for sale in the beginning of November and we just closed in the beginning of December (really fast in this bad economy). I also just got back from Amsterdam visiting one of my best friends.

I'm sitting here reading your new thread and the first thing that pops into my head is....can you believe how long it has been since we first started corresponding? Almost a year and a half! Fundamentally, my H hasn't changed and yours really hasn't either.

Do you ever fantasize what it would be like w/ CEO? If you opened yourself up to him? How he would make you feel?

I'll tell you quickly (sorry I'm hijacking your thread, but I just really talk to you and T the most and I know she'll read this)...When my H and I were selling the house, we were seperating out our assets. Here is a convo we had:
Me: It has always been counterintuitive for me to bring up getting a divorce, but I feel that it is inevidable now.
H: What do you mean?
Me: I never wanted a divorce. I always wanted to try and work it out, so for me to be the one to bring up actually getting divorced is counter intuitive.
H: The way I feel right now is that I just want my own place and live on my own for a while. I am not ready to say that I want a divorce. You may be ready for one, but I'm not.
Me: I'm not quite ready b/c I want to get my own place too.

So...that is where we stand. H is not with The Horse anymore and is dating around. He still talks to her and I know he loves her. He knows that I'm dating too. We have a pretty good relationship...considering. Well, considering I still cry over him and the betrayal.

I know that you have other things going on that are keeping you with him. How are you feeling?


H & I, both 32, together since 18.
*M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08
* Agreed to D 6/09...very hard
*D 8/10
* At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF