Thanks for e-mail. I can't believe I've missed out on what's been happening with you. I will try and post more. Sorry. Awaiting juicy gossip from conference.....
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I've been extra busy. I put my house up for sale in the beginning of November and we just closed in the beginning of December (really fast in this bad economy). I also just got back from Amsterdam visiting one of my best friends.
I'm sitting here reading your new thread and the first thing that pops into my head is....can you believe how long it has been since we first started corresponding? Almost a year and a half! Fundamentally, my H hasn't changed and yours really hasn't either.
Do you ever fantasize what it would be like w/ CEO? If you opened yourself up to him? How he would make you feel?
I'll tell you quickly (sorry I'm hijacking your thread, but I just really talk to you and T the most and I know she'll read this)...When my H and I were selling the house, we were seperating out our assets. Here is a convo we had: Me: It has always been counterintuitive for me to bring up getting a divorce, but I feel that it is inevidable now. H: What do you mean? Me: I never wanted a divorce. I always wanted to try and work it out, so for me to be the one to bring up actually getting divorced is counter intuitive. H: The way I feel right now is that I just want my own place and live on my own for a while. I am not ready to say that I want a divorce. You may be ready for one, but I'm not. Me: I'm not quite ready b/c I want to get my own place too.
So...that is where we stand. H is not with The Horse anymore and is dating around. He still talks to her and I know he loves her. He knows that I'm dating too. We have a pretty good relationship...considering. Well, considering I still cry over him and the betrayal.
I know that you have other things going on that are keeping you with him. How are you feeling?
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
Wow Beth.. I followed your thread too and I wondered where you were at. I cant believe you both feel the same.. want to stay M, dont want a D, both dating.. so wierd!
Can you see him/you falling back in love again? Or with him dating, is he looking for the elusive 'other'? How do you cope with it! I am amazed at the fortitude of all the people here.
Sorry to hijack also Lisa, hope you are having an illuminating week. Al xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
Wow!! I have been wondering about you and how you've been doing. I am so glad to hear that you were able to sell the house, and so quickly!!!!! And you got to go to amsterdam too??!!
You sound really strong. It was so gutsy of you to have that conversation with your H! i am glad that he isn't with the hourse anymore. but he is... dating? how do you feel about that, what does that mean to you? I haven't cried about my situation in so long, I wish I could sometimes. What is going on in your therapy? what new insights do you have?
I want you to know that I really appreciate this opportunity to share our journeys with each other.
I hope you love your new place. That is going to be such a good experience for you!
