Just need your support

[Snow White]

I spoke to MIL a few times yesterday as I am required to for arrangements for D5 and finances. She treated me different yeaterday then she did the past two-I thought she was very angry at me.

She said she had some "stuff" to bring for me. It was money that I had been owed on November 30(and told I wasnt getting), my garage door opener, my car keys, keys to my doors (all things I have been asking for for months) - there was also an additional $200 for money charged to the credit card, and a credit card cut in half - one that he must have taken from a drawer in my house iin the past few weeks.

She said that H had gone on his own and got information about anger management and a name of someone he can see in the area(I think it is something chemical). She made some sort of comment about the trial and that it has been a hard year and a lot of stuff might come out - LIke "It might come out snow that you contact him by text and phone"

I said "and why wouldnt I? Until the last few weeks he was still claiming to want to move home. I said I do not care what comes out I have nothing to be ashamed of. " My H was very odd, we would get along day to day as long as everythign was going his way so yes I responded to texts and calls. It was if I went out that the harassment would start.

I just feel so lost, I am glad this is coming to an end, but then I think about the holidays and the fact that it will be 6 weeks until I get to speak to him. I think about Christmas and how awful it will be in the afternoon. And then I think about New Years, and the fact that it was New Years day last year I found an email that said "Happy 2008 OW I like to call this the year of you and I" and that is what started it all. And it has been such a waste of an entire year of my existance.

I have so much to say but most of it is moaning, and I really should be getting ready for work. TTYL, Denise