Ah, I just want to scream. I am really missing my wife right now. I hate this situation so much. It is just really frustrating sometimes to realize that I was the one that screwed things up and that I caused this situation. I wish someone would just shoot me out of my misery (not really, but that is how bad the pain is feeling right now). I've been crying a lot this night and just feel defeated. Nothing seems to numb the pain right now.
