I also have not read the books cover to cover and probably that may be contributing to my lack of understanding.

Today I had a good go at letting obsessive thoughts go and you know for the most part it worked.

I have to let H go. I have to be resolute with myself that it is over.

So advice please !

Christmas day - he has siad that he is happy to come around xmas morning and spend that with the kids - is this good Dbing to allow this. He would leave lunchtime.

Me - if I am to give this man up , then having xmas would kill me. I would prefer to have xmas morning on my own and then let our kids go to him in the afternoon.

Kids - 2 of them dont care and one says she is staying put and refuses to have 2 christmas.

I want to do what is right and I just dont know